but it was just a waist of paper
So I’ve been making a conscious effort to not have my drawings break the fourth wall and look at the viewer. It occurred to me how strange it is that almost all fanart have characters staring at the viewer. If I can’t look a 3DPD in the eyes, maybe a 2D will do?
Nobody watches this anime. :/
hitting the right gear is hard in the dark.
Sometimes I’ll draw scenery during my day shifts; it’s been a relatively safe thing to draw without exposing my power levels.
and then add a girl during nights when nobody is watching:
and then I take it home or burn it before anybody can discover it. No one is allowed to know.
it wasn’t easy as pi, but I think sum estimate is better than nothing.
I remember one of the most commonly used lines for an Asian in high school was “if I were to get xx% on every test from here, I can still get a x.xx GPA.” And as one test or a second slipped below the proposed average, a new figure was hashed out and viewed, however unreasonably, as a perfectly feasible goal. I thought the same of cards. “If I can finish two cards a day from the end of October through November, with an extra two every weekend, I can guarantee 70 cards with two weeks to spare for envelopes and writing comments. At that rate, I could even possibly ask for more!” In much the same way that experience and repetitive disappointment taught me nothing in my years of academia, I found myself not sleeping the day before my birthday, folding envelopes and writing addresses with the only black pen I could find in my apartment.
The actual math of how long it took to draw them all is a fairly long problem:
20-30 minutes of actual drawing per card (1875 minutes)
20 minutes of downtime between cards to think about the next request, or chat, or watch anime, or browse, or browse porn, or just daydream (at two cards per day, 32*20 = 640 minutes)
10 minutes at the beginning of each session to scribble nothing and erase it all (~30 sessions = 300 minutes)
5 minutes to write something on the back (375 minutes)
I was folding envelopes and writing addresses at about 5 minutes a piece (375 minutes)
Give the usual 10 minutes warmup for two sessions (20 minutes total)
So the total is roughly 3585 minutes, or just short of 60 hours, with about 30 hours of actual drawing. Half the time was spent on indirect costs and overheads… otherwise known as the misplaced optimisms.
Good thing I get paid a salary and not an hourly wage? It should be obvious at this point that I’m not expecting any monetary gain, or hurting for cash to keep this going. So enjoy the cards. Try not to get them too sticky. Paper does not wash well.
In reality, I haven’t a clue how much time was spent. Most of those numbers are completely arbitrary and without base.